I got my new car

last weekend & I love it, but I’m having a hard time grasping driving manual. The issue I have is getting a smooth ride into first and that is very important. I don’t have issues when I’m going from 2nd to 3rd and etc, it’s just getting into first. So far it’s my third day practicing and I thought I would be nailing it my second day. I felt like giving up yesterday cause I am the type of person who panics, gets frustrated and quite which lead me to thinking “ maybe driving manual is not for me.” Manual driving requires lots of concentration and focus, but with me, my mind is constantly overloaded. I’m grateful to have Andy teach me, guide me, push me to not give up, but most importantly, not get frustrated, impatient or angry with me. He reminds me that driving manual takes practice. When I would practice, I would get frustrated by one mistake and it would go downhill from there. I’m too hard on myself and just need to relax, but it’s easier said than done.

Besides driving manual, I am now office manager at my work! My co-worker is moving out of state, so I got offered to take her position. It is going to be super busy since I will be working by myself until he decides to have interviews. Once he finds an assistant for me, I will have to train that person. I have a lot on my plate, but the pay is worth it. I start $22, full time and once 6 months pass, I get $23. I’m just worried about some questions that patients will want to ask me and I know about workers compensation, but not like my old co-worker did. Plus, all the patients love my old co-worker cause she connects with them, so it’s going to be a big change. When some of the patients found out about her last day, they were sad, crying, and saying things will be different. Yes it will be different. They would then ask who would take her place and when my old co-worker mentioned me, the patients would just stare at me and not say anything. That makes me feel like a piece of shit, honestly. I know I’m not like my co-worker who got personal with some patients (which in the medical field is unethical), but I did some things that patients needed help with, but I don’t get the credit, it would be my old co-worker. Well, I start Monday, so we shall see how it works out.